Andy Reitz (blog)



My current relationship with EDS: "bipolar"

Thinking about it, the best way for me to summarize how I'm feeling about EDS right now is that I have bipolar personality disorder about it. At one point last week, I was entirely jazzed about working there -- I have some ideas about bringing blogging and Wiki to the table, that I think could really revolutionize how the company communicates internally. I have been doing some work, giving presentations, trying to sell my ideas, and I'm at the point where I need to start some pilot projects in order to get some proof in the pudding. All of that is totally great.

But then I have days like today, which just make me feel like "fuck it, I want to quit". One of the members of our (small) team announced that he is moving on, and will be joining a different company in a few weeks. It really hurts because this person is someone that I have a deep respect for on the technical computer side of things (which isn't to say that he isn't a stand-up guy in other ways -- he is, but I'm all about the CompSci kung fu). We're certainly not going to be able to replace him -- even if we could hire externally (but we cannot, so the point is moot).

It has been fun, essentially being a startup within a big-giant-honking organization, but I'm not sure how much longer it is going to last. What has made everything worth it so far has been the team -- I have a lot of respect and admiration for my co-workers. Not only are they technically brilliant, but they're also a fun group of cats to hang out with. So, it really sucks to see the team slowly breaking apart. But, as the saying goes, "all good things must come to an end".


(Bonus Blog Entry: Really-loud music that I listened too after getting home today: track 13 off of Ænima, "Ænema". That, at least, made me feel a little better.)